10. 03. 13. Carefulness.

10. 03. 13. Carefulness.

Day Thirteen.
Carefulness.

All my life I have been the careful one. I've always been afraid of getting in trouble or getting hurt or doing something wrong. I've essentially been afraid of making mistakes. I always wanted to be perfect. I was never the risk taker. I was always the goody two shoes, the boring one. I never lived for adventure.

Last year, I went to Guatemala on a missions trip. Missions trips often do things to you that you honestly don't want them too. While I was there I went to my first water park. It was different than American parks. There were less people, less commercialism, and no life guards. I am not a very strong swimmer because for years I was afraid of the water and of drowning. The tallest slide at the park faced me. All my friends were going down, daring each other, etc. Then it was my turn. My youth pastor and I were both super scared. My friend Tierney forced me to go down. I made a deal with Pastor Michael that if I went down he had to go down. So I went first. It was so exhilarating. Once I landed in the water I floundered around until I reached the surface but I made it and didn't drown. It was so worth overcoming my fear and cautiousness. That trip really taught me to overcome my fear and decipher between which emotions are fear and which ones are wisdom.

Yes, I am always cautious but that's a good thing. I just need to make sure that's what it is and not fear. People say they value how careful I am, but I am completely free so I don't need to fear death or the future. God has a calling on my life and even if I mess some things up He will still use it for his greater purpose.