OOTD: Spring in Colorado

OOTD: Spring in Colorado

Flower Daisy Crown: Aeropostale $5

Long sleeved Tunic Dress: Wish $7

Slim Brown Belt: Wal-Mart $5

Mossimo Brown Combat Heel Booties (Not Shown) : Target $30

OOTD WINTER Spring

OOTD:

Faded Glory White Lace Tee $7 Wal-Mart

American Eagle High Rise Skinnies $36 American Eagle

Duster Sweater $24 Aeropostale 

Inverted Chevron Nevklace $Gift Forever 21

Tan Fringe Suede Boots $22 Kmart

Valentine's Day Low Key OOTD

Black Hat Forever 21 $19

Mossimo Denim Vest Target $30

Bronze Globe Locker Etsy $30

L.E.I. White Sheer tank $7

Mossimo Black pencil skirt Target $30

Prayers for my Future Husband - Day 6

Lord Jesus,

Thank you so much for my future beloved! Thank you for the man you've called him to be. I pray that you would prepare him for a relationship and for marriage. Prepare his heart, his mind, and his future. I pray that he would fall desperately in love with you before he falls in love with me, Jesus. I ask that you would teach him how to love you before he learns how to love his wife.

Give him wisdom and intuition for his future marriage, guard him from making bad decisions that may hurt or affect our future. God, if he makes mistakes along the way help him to know the extreme depths of your grace. Let him know that there is NO condemnation in you, Lord. Restore the joy of salvation in his life. Don't allow him to continue in sin or beat himself up for his mistakes.

Lord, let my future husband know how much you love him, lift up his head and let him be strong in his faith. Help him realize the warrior he is in you. I love you, Father! Prepare me as well as my darling for a relationship under you. 

Amen!

Prayers for my Future Husband - Day 5

Dear Jesus,

I might not know who my future husband is but I do know that he is the man you have hand-picked for me. You know his strengths and weakness as well as mine. I know that you will bring us together in your timing, in your will and in your power. Help the both of us to trust you for everything. Help us to rely on you for true happiness and contentedness instead of each other. 

I know that whatever lies ahead in our future together that you will be with us. I pray that every decision that my future husband and I make leading up to the day we marry will be one made seeking your wisdom. Please help us to choose to do the right thing, always. Please guard and protect both of our hearts. Be the center of our lives, our relationship and our future. 

Bring us together under you and for your glory, Jesus. Bless my future husband today, give him joy, give him a heart for you and a heart for others. Don't let the pressures and demands of the world around him bring him down. Please shield and uphold him with your righteous right hand. I ask all of these things in Your Holy Name. 

Amen!

The date.

Today I went on a date.

Now it wasn't just any regular date, this was a first date; my first date. 

I've never gone on a date before and never had a real boyfriend before; mostly because no one has ever asked me out before. For years I have tried to figure out why, but more on that later.

Okay it's later. Well I still don't know for sure why, and I probably won't ever. My suspicions, however, is that God simply didn't want me to.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying God is against dating, not at all. I'm simply saying in my case, He just didn't want me to. I tend to obsess over things and overthink them, as most of us ladies do. But over the past few months I've been growing up. I've been letting go of things and not worrying anymore. Before I was very passive aggressive but now I'm just passive, with aggressive tendencies ;) but seriously I've learned to let go of a lot of anger and just chill. If something happens, it just happens.

When I went on my date, I wasn't worried at all about if the guy liked me, which to be honest is a little weird. I was more worried about my appearance before hand. I think I convinced myself that if he didn't like me, that wasn't my fault and I think that's how our mindset should be in situations like that.

The biggest thing I learned from this date, was that God loved me. 

Okay I know what you're thinking, umm Bethany, I think you missed the point of a date there champ... 

But I don't think I did at all. The point of a godly relationship is to bring you closer to God, point blank. We can say dating has other purposes, but that's what it's supposed to be no matter how we try to kid ourselves. As I was getting ready and trying on different shoes, I felt special. I felt important. And I felt loved. God had blessed with an opportunity of a date, even when I did it against him out of self and longing for love. I think he allowed me to go to reassure me that he had the love I was looking for. I felt like a princess and I felt taken care of, by God not necessarily my date. 

The point of all this, is God really does want to lavish on you whether you follow his plan or not. I haven't been the best Christian over the past few months but now I'm trying again. I'm making a conscience effort to please my king, not out of an obligation for his love but to show him I love him, as a gift. 

Prayers for My Future Husband -Day 4

Dear Jesus, 

Please help my future husband to daily become closer with you. Each day may he love you more and more. Please help him to put you first in his life. There are so many distractions that come up throughout the day and even if they are innocent ones they can still hinder his getting to spend time with you.

So, I pray that you would be the first thing on his mind when he awakes in the morning and that he will keep meditating and thinking about you and your word all day long until he goes to sleep at night.

Please help Him to seek out your word, the Bible, and to have a hunger and thirst to know you better and to hear what you are trying to say to him within it. Guide him through your word and give him wisdom and understanding as he reads it. May he thrive and flourish like the man in Psalm 1 who is constantly thinking upon your law. Please equip him in his quiet time with you to meet whatever the day may throw at Him and to boldly follow wherever you may lead him.

Amen!